Thursday, May 26, 2005
♥ 12:07 PM
Heee.. ive been lazy for the past week.. have not update anything onto my blog at all...
Anyways.. thanks.. xiaobai.. i finally got my songs.. *smiles* at least u got 2 out of 3 correct... else i will throw the cd (u know which one im talking about hee) away...
Things are busy busy nowadays.. just came back from sick leave yesterday.. and a whole load of emails flew around... so im actually not in a very good mood right now... still feeling all goggly from the medicine...
had a row with xiaoming... hmm.. and of all people about Sandrian...seems that there are a no of ppl talking .. about what im not sure.. I know the whole thing according to xiaoming is over.. cos he refuse to talk about it.. but in response to his blog.. about xiaobai flirting with me.. or about the fact that i feel that he's unimportant.. i just feel that i have something to say about it... Clarification... neither xiaobai nor me are flirting with each other.. we are just closer cos we click... that's all!!! Even though xiaobai is ten years younger... i can relate and talk to him and treat him like an equal who can understand from my point and advise me on certain stuff... so naturally i do feel closer to him... Xiaoming, on the other hand.. behaves just like a 17 years old will behave... I do not feel that you are small or unimpt.. i just do not tell you stuff that i tell xiaobai cos i feel that you behave sometimes like a small kid... and definitely not someone that i will go to advice for... U are someone that i dun feel can understand my problems or what im saying.. which is there are times u see xiaobai and me deep in discussion.. abt my prob ... maybe u feel excluded... but that does not mean tat u are unimpt to me.. or small.. we just dun click on that level.. that's all..
*Phew* I've waited so many days to update my blog, partly cos of this also.. I dun wan to be angry when i write this.. cos initially i was really angry... I wanted to at least feel more objective when im writing this so as to make things better and not worse between me and xiaoming.. Hopefully he will understand what im trying to say above.. and not take it badly...
Today i have been doing nothing but interviewing people for the position of general workers.. I need someone who can carry heavy stuff.. and when i have to reject a lot of 40 plus 50 years old people.. i feel damn bad... cos their age is a discrimination against them... and thinking in the viewpoint of my company... i cant employ them... One of them had a pregnant wife and has been out of a job for half a year.. others need money very badly... but i had to say no.. Cant help but think what will happen to me when im at their age and looking for a job.. and that make me realise that i do have to go and get a degree... an overseas part time degree... to open up more paths for myself.. i really cannot imagine if i have to be like that when im older.. the thought is horrifying..
Sigh.. tiring day.. going to watch star wars a second time with tracy later.. at cineleisure.. pity xiaobai has gone home from his "gay" expedition with his friends from heeren... heee.. else can meet him for a while and pass his cd game to him...
k.. got to ciaoz soon..
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